It's the middle of the week. I've finished homeschooling my two kids, a 4th grader, and a kindergartner, for the day. I did dishes, cooked food, squandered time on a coloring app, then deleted that, and finished deleting my social media apps off my phone. Let's call the latter a soft delete. I've wanted to for a long time but FOMO. Social media, for me, became more about not being able to be as productive as other crafters, not as creative as other homeschooling mothers, not having as clean of a house as other homemakers, not cultivating real relationships with people, leaving me clinging to on-line versions of people I have never met, or have the actual phone numbers or addresses of. What a joy suck, leaving me feeling inadequate, edgy, and insecure. It only took me a worldwide pandemic and an overwhelmed life to realize it.
I'm making the most of this pandemic season. The four of us are at home together 24/7, which is both beautiful, and admittedly challenging. I am accustomed to being alone, working from home, while the kids were at pre-/school, and darling husband at the office, and I miss quiet and time to put towards my own projects. It's this season of life, too, that I try to embrace, the rearing of children, and a puppy, which are far more important than many other things, but I let doomscrolling take over a large part of that time, and that's definitely something that does me no good. I would rather put energies into something more productive.
I am hoping my blog resurrection will provide an outlet of more thoughtful reflection on those things I feel are truly important, namely family, home, and hopefully a bit of crafting.
What I am currently listening to: Zoey's Extraordinary Playlist on Spotify
Latest read: The Case of the Bizarre Bouquets by Nancy Springer
No comments:
Post a Comment